A Christian leader had just prayed for me for healing for my many medical problems. He had done it before, several times, but so far no instant miraculous healing. Then he said: ” Perhaps God thinks you need disciplining.”
He left, but I sat there feeling like he had slapped me. Did he really think that I was such a great sinner that I needed all these medical problems as punishment? That I was ill because I was somehow worse than everyone else?
I felt shocked for hours, but then I was reminded of what the bible says: That Jesus took our punishment so that we might be free, able to start a new life. God doesn’t send sickness to some of us because we are worse sinners than the others. He doesn’t punish us. Jesus took our punishment. Yes, he can heal, and he does, but if it doesn’t happen when we want it, it doesn’t mean that he is rejecting us because we are so bad. It just means that he is dealing with something else in our lives right now.
I told the same leader about an accident I had had. He had just asked me didn’t I jump up and dance a around, hadn’t I experienced a miracle in the last week? Because he had healings and miracles on his heart.Well, no, I hadn’t. Nothing supernatural had happened. He sounded disappointed. He said:” Yes, you can take the knocks life gives, or you can live blessed.” I was puzzled. Did he see me as not blessed by God because I had medical problems? Did he see me as not blessed because I didn’t have an instant healing? Do people really believe that you’re only blessed by God if you see signs and wonders all the time and get what you want from life?
Well, I’m sorry, but that’s not what the bible says. He promised us trials and even persecution. but he also said that he would be with us through it all. And yes, there are many blessings, too, many proofs of God’s love. Being permanently ill and disabled I need his help through the day, for things which other people just do without thinking about it, because they can. He has given me gifts and abilities which I can use to help others, and they do not depend on physical strength. I was homeless and he gave me a home, I had no money but he gave me food. Many times he has given me little surprises, just when I felt in need of encouragement. Am I not blessed? You bet I am!
If being blessed meant sailing through life on a cloud we would have to be taken out of this world. Jesus doesn’t do that, he wants us here to be witnesses of his love, to help and not to judge. Perhaps we would even see more healings if we did that, rather than reject and judge those who are ill. Love is healing.
Food for thought.